Lost Hearts Chapter 19

"What the Hell?! Doesn't anyone sleep, anymore?! God, I can never get a good night's rest without someone knocking at my door, or tapping on my window! I hate this!" I said with a sigh. "Fine, I'll go check on that ignorant little pest of a sister." I said angrily. I still had metallic jet black hair, and my eyes were burnt amber in colour. I was hardly myself. I was angrier, and I wanted to kill someone. I was ready to tear the village apart. Although, I was still in my pajamas, I didn't care. If it had something to do with Maya, I knew it wasn't good. My heart seemed to be set ablaze with emotions that I had never felt before. The music that I had always heard wasn't muffled anymore. I heard it clearly, now.
"Lady Stella!! Your hair, and your eyes! They're changing colours! What's going on?!" The woman next to me became rather frightened.
"This. This is merely me becoming who I am. I'm changing from the inside to accommodate for the sudden rush of memories, and emotions. As well as for this child that I am to bare. It's nothing, really. All the women in my clan can achieve this state at a certain age. I believe that the age in which one receives this is twenty-eight." I rolled my hair on my hand, then the colour of my hair and eyes set. I had become this new person. I had metallic jet black hair with blue and silver streaks. My eyes were a spiral of colours. Blues, greens, and burnt amber. I tied my hair into an unusual hair style. The way it was made think of myself as a fighter. Like the fighter that I use to be. The one that I was when I was about Maya's age. I had always done my best on my feet, and I could punch faster and quicker than anyone else. Even the jounin that I had met said "That's some style that you have. Your not only fast, but your strong as well. Plus, your amazingly intelligent, and you seem to be able to adapt, too. A good balance, especially for such a young ninja. I never thought anyone would surpass your father, until now."
Although, that was then, and this is now. I am, what I am. I am, who I am. I walked to the path leading into Maya's house, only to stop the woman, and proceed myself. I had seen a red shimmer on the wall, and felt something strange about the air in her house. As I walked through the doorway, I noticed the shattered door. It was obviously Maya's doing, only the chakra explosion jutsu could have done that damage. My eyes began to shift around to the areas of the house that I could see. My hair broke free of the hair ties, and floated in place. My chakra was boiling, and my emotions were set off. I had only felt this feeling a few times, but I knew. I knew it wasn't going to end well... for me. I walked up to Maya's bedroom noticing it was a wreck. I rolled my eyes, and looked around for a few seconds before noticing a note lying on the floor. It had obviously been opened before. Someone was in the room with me, and the presence was familar.
"What do you want now, dearest brother?" I asked with a slight feeling of anger rush into my chest.
"Maya has left the village, and I wanted to know why she did so." He said close to my ear with a small devious snicker.
"Ass-hole, this is our matter, not yours!! I'm her guardian, not you! Father made it clear, Hedeki! Your not welcome here!! I remember everything that you did!! You traitorous ass-wipe!! You don't deserve to die in peace, nor do you deserve to die!! The only thing fitting enough for you is to live out your days in limbo!!" I hissed, and spat. My chakra exploding with fury, then my memory failed, and I awoke to a shattered and beaten down house. I realized that I was standing in front of Maya's house. I searched for something to steady my balance, and while I leaned against a nearby fence post I read the letter that I seemed to have obtained. I shook my head in protest.
"First Sasuke leaves the village. Now, it's Maya. I hate when these fucking morons think that I'm unintelligent enough to figure this mystery out." I said storming off to Tenten's house. I knew she had to do something with it, and just in case she tried to attack me, I went to Kiba's house beforehand. I had been taking Akamaru out in the middle of the night, every now and again. I knew Akamaru, fairly well, and I knew that he had been able to smell that I wasn't human. He knew my little secret. I knocked hard at the door, and held Akamaru in my left arm to give me some assurance. I waited as patiently as I could, but ended up knocking at the door. When I had knocked, I noticed that it wasn't the door I was knocking on. Instead, I was knocking on Tenten's head. I laughed a little, I hadn't expected it, but it was a welcome relief to the grief I was being put through.
"Yes, Stella-sensei? What is it?" Tenten rubbed her eyes.
"What did you do to anger Maya in this way?!" I nearly blew her night cap off, as I held half of the note she had written, and left on her desk. Tenten read it, and seemed to take on a frightened look.
"I'm sorry, Stella-sensei. I played a prank on her with Ino's help. I never thought she would go this far as to leave the village. I'm sorry." Tenten faced up to her crime, and tried to explain it to me. I shook my head, and sighed rather heavily.
"The two of you are nothing more children who are careless, and reckless. You shouldn't get in the way of the two of them, if it's true love, you can't stop it. If it's not, have fun with a rebound." I said as I disappeared into a more familiar scene. I had already sent Akamaru on his way home. I knew that dog was good at tracking Kiba, and I had left a present for the little dog, a doggy door.
I stood in the window frame of Kakashi's bedroom, rolling my eyes at Kakashi. He had fallen asleep while reading Ichya Ichya Paradise, again. I let my smaller cupid-like wings show, and floated to the floor as to make little to no noise. My wings disappeared, and I curled up into Kakashi's bed to wait for when he woke up.

It been a couple hours since I had gotten to Kakashi's house, and curled up beside him in bed. My hair had returned to it's original colour, as did my eyes. Then, suddenly I heard him wake up. I jumped up, and shoved the notes in his face. He read them and looked up at me.
"What happened?" He asked with a yawn.
"Tenten, and Ino. That's what. They had 'pranked' Maya to make her think that Neji didn't love her. Although, it seems as though she took it rather harshly, and they hadn't told her that it was a prank." I contained my dislike for Tenten, and my burning rage at her actions. I sat on the side of his bed and mustered my wisdom before I had gotten too enraged. I hated when people did things like this. It made me feel like there wasn't anyone who wasn't incapable of feeling a lust that made them do dumb things like this. I sighed and walked to the window.
"I'll meet you at Hyuuga Neji's residence, or at Tsunade's office. Don't worry about me. I'll be alright." I spoke to him in a soft tone, before jumping out the window into the streets of Konohagakure. I had gotten half-way to Neji's house, when I collided with Naruto.
"Oh, sorry. Stella-sensei!! So, how're you doing? I haven't seen you in a while!" Naruto said in his usual upbeat voice, but he seemed to be trying to be as quiet as he could. I laughed a bit.
"I'm doing fine, Naruto, and I know I haven't been out much, lately. I've had things to attend to, like now." I said lowering my face to meet his. Then I tapped his nose with my thumb, and I disappeared.
"That was weird," he said, then he shrugged, and walked off.

"What? Not Maya, too. Ugh, teenagers these days. I can't understand them." Lady Tsunade had been fairly stressed for the past few months, and everyone seemed to have noticed. Especially me. I was always the one that seemed to be advicing her, instead of Shizune who was always on a mission or at the hospital. I sighed.
"Leave it to me, Lady Tsunade. I'll handle this situation, as well as the situation surrounding the Uroroki clan, my clan. It would make my father proud to see that our name be cleared of this. It would make me happy as well. If you would just allow me to go. Kakashi will keep me safe. Believe in us, please." I spoke softly, and wisely. Then she shook her head only to accept the fact that only I could handle these two situations, but with my present condition: it had been questionable for both of us. We stared at each other before I dismissed myself from the room. Then made my way to the cliffs where the Kage's faces were carved. I stood mightily on the very perch that I had met Kakashi on, many times before. It was our favourite place in the village to be. Things were starting to unravel like father had told me, and I knew what had to be done. I had to do everything I could to accomplish the task before I died.
'I am ready, and I'm not going to back down!!' I said before diving off the cliff edge. As I fell, I locked eyes with Iruka for only a moment's grace. Then he jumped off the cliff, too. When I saw him jump I spiralled around so that I was facing him.
"Iruka! You’re an idiot! You won't make this jump, alive!" I yelled at him. He dove in next to me.
"I know, but you won't either, and I couldn't at least try to help you." He shouted.
"You should know something, you goof." I said as I spread my large angelic wings, and let my kitsune tail appear. My ears had popped from the top of my head, while my claws had shown. I flew around and caught Iruka, he had nearly hit the ground when I did. Then he gave a slight sigh of relief, and I laughed at his expression. I gently placed him on the ground, and landed hiding my chimera appearance. He walked a few feet away from me, and I approached him, slowly. Then, slowly still, I placed my hand on his back.
"You shouldn't be doing such reckless things in your state." Iruka gasped for air.
"Hm, last time I checked: I was one of the greatest shinobi, and I'm a chimera." I spoke in such a whimsical voice.
"Chimera? What that other form? Is that what you call it?" He said, obviously horrified.
"Hm, I see. You didn't like seeing me as I am. Since that is so, we must separate, go our own ways. Good bye, Iruka, my friend." I had spoken calmly, and cooly without a trace of emotion. I turned away from him, and walked away. I cried as I walked to the gates of Konohamaru. I had never thought that things would work out the way that they were. Now, I had many questions spiralling my mind as I walked out of the village. Soon, enough I had gotten to my favourite place in all of the fire country. I was sitting in a large tree. It had always seemed to have enough room for a whole community. It indeed was home to a community already, but it seemed to be able to house a family of humans as well. I had always come to this tree when I needed to get away from the village. Although, it was Kakashi that showed me here. It was the first time that we had ever met, officially. I had been living in the village for a week, and I didn't know my way around, yet. I had travelled the streets for an hour that day, when I saw Kakashi, and his silver hair. He had caught my eye, and soon enough, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. Then I noticed that he was going out of the village. So, I had followed him. I had followed him to this huge tree, which is where he had scared me, so bad. I had only looked away from him for a brief moment in time. Then I felt two hands slither down my shirt. I screamed so loud, and he laughed at me for such a long time. It was then that he introduced himself, and I recognized him after a few minutes. He was the one that had saved me from the ninja on the outskirts of the village. Kakashi had admitted to saving me that day, but said that it was nothing, really. We had talked for hours that day, and soon enough we talked everyday at that tree, and he would walk me home. Otherwise, we would meet on the cliff face in the village. He would always set up dates, and I would never show up. I always slept too long, had a mission that was holding me up, or I would be training late. I've always been serious about my career as a ninja. My only fall backs were nurse, cook, and florist. I could be an entertainer, but that's the question: What would I do as an entertainer? This tree had always helped me in some way to get a better understanding of what I should do, or be doing.
Soon, I fell asleep, and found myself in a dream.

~Dream~
"Your not a great fighter, are you? Or are you just a bad ninja?" It was the first time that morning that she would say that. I knew it was coming again, but not now. I was focusing my chakra. Focussing on me, and me alone. I knew how to fight, I knew how to do these things. Although, I was never the one to fight someone that was so close to me. 'My own best friend. She truly means everything to me. Where would I be without her at my side? I shouldn't think such a thing. Although, it is an intriguing question. It leaves me to wonder about everything that might have been, and would have been if I hadn't.' I was lost in thought once again. My friend struck me in the gut, when it came to accuracy, and using her 'chakra bullet' jutsu: she was the only person who could pull it off like her. I lay on the ground, grasping my gut in pain.
"Sei-chan? I was wondering... if we could take a break. I haven't been able to focus for sometime." I asked making an awkward face. She shook her head, and sat down next to me.
"You do know that letting your mind wander the way yo let it is unhealthy. Right?" Sei-chan asked.
"Yes, but I can't help it!! The urges have become even worse!! I want to become a ninja, and I want to do it on my own, my own way. I want to go to the hidden leaf village, and train there, and everything!" I said with a whimsical tome to my voice. Sei-chan cupped her hand over my mouth.
"If your father ever heard, I don't know what he would do to punish you for thinking that you could just leave!!" She whispered in a frantic tone. I giggled, and left her side, walking to my father, who was resting from a previous mission that left him in sore conditions. I whispered the words that I spoke to Sei-chan in his ear as I kneeled at his side on the rock that he was sitting upon. He placed his hand on my head, and soft words to me.
"Stella, dear. If this is the path of which you desire; then I shall support you in every way that I am capable of." He said the words so calmly, and I knew that I would be like my father. I would turn into the grand shinobi that he is. Everything around me started to fade, but before everything faded I heard the words that I was desperately searching for, longing to hear from father in ages:
"Stella, dearest. I know the road ahead for you will have many difficulties, and many things will turn out wrong, but never give in to the uncertainty that will force itself upon you. I love you." He spoke so soft, and so confidently, when he said it. I loved to hear the things that he thought, and all of his many wisdoms. I always thought of him as the most intriguing person that I would ever be able to find. Everything faded into a very pale light.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I moaned, sighed, and tried to awake from my slumber, but I didn't want to. Then I felt a hand brush my hair out of my face, and slide down my cheek. I lifted my head to allow them to continue across my throat. I began to pur, and I moved towards the source of my pleasure. When I opened my eyes, I saw Iruka.
"I'm sorry about earlier. I was just caught off guard, and didn't know what to think. I'm sorry that my actions offended you, so." He said brushing some more hair out of my face. I shook my head, and laughed.
"I'm sorry as well. I over-reacted." I said kissing his cheek.
"Why don't we go back to the village, everyone, especially Kakashi, has become worried over you." He said.
"Alright, let's go." I said softly as I allowed Iruka to help me through the thick forest that we were in.
When we got back, everyone greeted us with much relief spreading across their faces. I blushed, and told everyone where I had gone, before telling them: 'Don't worry about me, I'll be ok.' Everyone laughed when I said this. Kakashi grabbed me by my hand, and escorted me to my house. He told me what Neji had told him.
"Neji swore that he was not in control of his body at the time. He remembered Tenten aproaching him while he was preparing to change so he could go swimming, then the next thing he knew, Ino was inside his head, controlling him." Kakashi explained. Then I nodded and grabbed a piece of paper writing everything that I knew about what happened in those few minutes that Maya, Neji, and Tenten had seen. By the time I was done it had read:
'Dear Maya,
I know that you won't listen to what Neji will ever say, but I hope that you feel the need to read this, for I have solved the case between you, and Neji. It seems as though, Tenten had the twisted thought that she should play a stupid prank on you. She asked Ino to take control of Neji, and to have that whole scene play out in front of you to get you to back off of Neji. They hadn't meant to hurt your feelings enough for you leave the village. They had told me everything. Will you not come back to accept their apologies?
I would also like to see you, here, once again. For I have news for you that I cannot express through written words. Although, I would like to have you send your letters, if you're still not willing to come back, through a different kind of bird. An eagle would be a preferable one.
Will you not come back? -
~Stella Uroroki~'

Kakashi, and I waited for a messenger bird to arrive. When it finally came I noticed a little note attached which read:
"Please, Don't come looking for me, I'm happy now, with a new family of that sorts. I'll continue to write, but it will be with a chickadee, but a blue ribbon, end of story. I don't need the village, I'm fine on my own."
I nodded and took the note, replacing it with my note. Then I left the bird fly back to Maya. I kept a close eye on it while it left the village, and awhile afterwards. The chickadee flew towards a pond, where it merged with a cloud of other chickadee's, when they cleared, the bird was gone.
"Damn," I swore. I returned to the village.